And I did It Again - Crying So Hard When The Queen Died

Di post ini, besar harapanku untuk berhasil menguak kenapa aku segitu nangis bombaynya kalau ada kakek atau nenek-nenek meninggal. We will see ya, apakah aku berhasil cari tau atau nggak. Kemarin, aku bangun pagi dan kaget ngeliat kabar dimana-mana kalo Queen Elizabeth meninggal dunia di umur lebih dari 90 tahun. Selama ini aku suka banget ngeliat beliau, perhatian ama stylenya, suka liat foto-fotonya atau sepak terjangnya. Tapi nggak sampe jadi Royal Family addict gitu ya. Aku cuma enjoying...

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After Party: Reflections on My 30th Birthday

Hi there, how are you?It is me, Hana, again. Eh, wait, the new 30 yo Hana. The new type of Hana, I think? Hehe.. Writing on this blog again from Starbucks GBK on my leave day. I have to wait for this day when finally all my awkward things about the 30th birthday disappear and I can start to write down all my thoughts and feelings. Maybe almost one month before my birthday, some thoughts constantly pop up in my head. These thoughts about the other pathways that I did not take in my...

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When You Carry A Severe Procrastination

 And you want to be free as soon as possible..So, what will you do Han?Aren't you super tired?You want to try something new, your 30 yo waiting for you 2 weeks later.Do you want to bring the same amount of baggage in the new age?Please, save yourself.&nb...

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Mixed Feelings That Always Come Consistent

Sejauh yang aku ingat, sepertinya aku selalu konsisten punya mixed feelings menghadapi malam takbiran. Antara sedih, menyesal, marah sama diri sendiri, seneng, excited, berasa dikasih kesempatan baru, kangen, pengen nangis karena kangen, penuh syukur, ada takut dan ada cemasnya juga. Pokoknya ini malam yang sebenernya agak aneh, karena di satu waktu ngerasa puluhan emosi. Dan setiap tahun selalu begitu.Jadi, malem ini, mumpung ini super pengalaman baru seumur hidupku, aku mencoba mengkristalkannya...

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Garden, Not Machine

 I think I need to look at my daily life with a different approach.WFH seems to look easy, I've lost 3 hours dealing with traffic jams. But, after two years, I knew something wasn't working.I need variety. I need something to remember, that today is a new day. A different day than yesterday or tomorrow. I realized, since two years ago, I tend to see myself as a machine. Big machine. Keep working from one to-do list to another. Pushing myself with early deadlines. Purchase candles and aromatherapy...

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Yes or No?

 Hi there, Sorry for the extra-long despair. I miss you, white page on my blog. I really miss you. There's a lot happened in my life. Too much, and I found it difficult to start telling you what happened. But today, I need an extra shot. I need to boost my mood and figure out what happens to me. This week goes slowly and harder than before. I got my period, so Monday, I cancel almost all clients on that day. I thought Tuesday until Friday will go smoothly. But NOT. I...

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